(photo from Holi celebration in India)
Well, there's a bunch of stuff to update and upload from India, but since today's society seems to be more and more about the Now, that I should upload stuff when it happens, in this very moment...
I can't do that. I live an active life, and even though I try I cannot update on my every move.
That said - it's time to update on my move!
I'M BACK IN SWEDEN!
At this moment I'm at my parents place, repacking. As you can imagine, being a travelling artist it's very very convenient to have relatives with a huge storage, to keep all the show clothes to change every season or so.
Now I will be in Stockholm, party in Karlstad, studying to get a driver's license. I figured it's time to get one, for many reasons, one of them being; I can drive a scooter now = not afraid of motorized vehicles anymore!
And being back in this country, all of the sudden I'm faced with many choices.
See - I'm a person of many talents, and I love many things. All the things I do I love and enjoy differently, but in basically the same amount, and I cannot live without any of them.
And as a freelance artist, my choices are endless. I can (if I have the money, or somehow can find a way to live for free) choose not to work for a while, I can choose to search in panic for a long-term contract, I can.. well, a lot of stuff.
SO now, coming back from India, where I had a few gigs but not so much (mostly recovering my body), I don't have that much work.
I got a contract job in Turkey, may get another one in Greece, but all that is so long term, committing to it is HUGE because that means the other stuff I don't practice will be forgotten by me, or potential clients!
Since there's already a few festivals, gigs and events I will be participating in in Sweden, it's hard to choose if I should stay, WHAT I should focus on if I stay, or just... what will life be in general.
Right now I can/want to:
Also weighing in my on/off relationship I would love to fix, the fact that I don't have a steady home and really want to feel safe for a while, and also that I want to do all of these things at some point in my life.... and the courses (theater, choreography etc.) might only be this year and never be repeated again!
So, what happens now?
I'll apply to all the courses and the school, all the jobs and gigs available, and then decide what feels more right to do right now.
I guess I'll do it all eventually, but have to find a way to feel somehow what's most important at this very moment.
If you have any advice on how to make major life decisions when you seriously want to do it all at the same time, please comment!
For now I'll be in Stockholm.
If anything changes, I'll let you know.
Love and dance,
.... and, you know,
all the other things that would interest you if you're a fan, if you like my writing, or if you are a pontential employer/client for whom it is important to know if I am a republican or if I eat bacon every day.Fortunately for you, I am/do neither. Bacon is not healthy.