Living in Scandinavia most part of my life (besides the months spent travelling, haha), I've always despised the oncoming darkness.
For those who don't know, here in Sweden at this latitude (Stockholm) there's around... 6,5 hours of daylight at this moment.
Every year it starts getting darker, and every time I've felt depressed. Super unmotivated, everything sucked, didn't really want to do much, and if I did I was in grief all the time, over.. well, everything.
A lack of sunlight, or vitamin D, can show symptoms like:
- Increased risk or symptoms of clinical depression
- For men especially, it increases risk of heard disease.
- It's been linked to certain cancers, psychological issues and dementia.
- It lowers the immune system, and oh don't forget those harmful artificial screen lights!
- Then there's back pain, joint and muscle pain, hair loss, bone loss, anxiety, fatigue and weight gain...
- Ooh, and also - using sunscreen and sunglasses inhibits vitamin D uptake. So there's worse consequences from not enough sun then too much.
But last year I went out of the country, filling myself up with sun, I was in a beautiful relationship, and I broke the SAD pattern.
Today, it's even better!
I haven't felt affected by the darkness at all this year, in fact, I think I like it!
Living on a quiet island has provided a sanctuary for me and my emotions, and the darkness is embracing me like a blanket.. I do miss the sunshine, and I'm longing for it, but not complaining about the dark same way as I used to. It feels safe, real, and like it's supposed to be this way; it's okay to go into the shadows once in a while, and winter is a time of reflection, shadow work, and self love, for comfort, soft touch, and warm food.
Life naturally slows down, and I grieve that our society prevents us from following our natural rhythm, expecting us to be on top at all times.
Luckily, we don't have to follow the rules of society!
Love and Dance
I've always loved these huge majestic animals, went horseback riding when I was younger, drew them all the time, but life had it so I would not afford or live close enough to hang out with them often enough.
Two weeks ago a friend of mine invited me to travel 4 h south to ride, and have a photo-shoot, and of course I had to say yes!
Instantly I felt a deep connection with them, walking in the field, the animals gathering round and expressing curiosity..
There is such a thing as horse therapy (equine therapy), where psych-patients get to interact with horses in different ways, to develop self control, self confidence, accountability, responsibility etc.
Some of the other benefits are:
Emotional awareness, empathy, flexibility, stress tolerance, impulse control, social responsibility, self regard and independence.
Later we saddled the horses and went to take pictures on them; as soon as I got in the saddle
After the photo-shoot we got to go for a ride, both me and the horse super restless and happy.
When I got him to gallop I felt an amazing feeling, almost like seeing a loved one after a long time from each other, or going on vacation after many weeks of hard work!!
I started laughing from joy, smiling and couldn't hold back, holding on with my thighs as hard as possible because the horse got as excited as I, galloping faster
The two days after I could barley walk from muscle pain in my legs, hahahaha ..
Then horses have appeared in my dreams and mind, this Saturday I get to ride again, and today one appeared in a drum journey we did in class.
In shamanic and other cultures horses symbolize power and freedom, sexuality, nobility, wilderness, motivation to carry you through anything, trusting relationships, and cooperating with people but without losing ones individuality.
Horse medicine helps you balance current responsibilities and close relationships with your desire for independence, and to feel the gratitude in our hearts.
With its help, you can overcome any difficult situation.
Enjoy your appetite for life, freedom of expression and full life force!
Go hang out with horses, even if you're afraid
of them I'm sure it will do you good
Love and dance
Here's a drawing I made when I was.. 16, I think.
In these last 12 months a lot has happened, but one of the more unusual things; I've become more active on social media, yaaay!
Or, at least I do my best, since I know how important it is to make an artist career happen (unfortunately ?)... right?
So, let's check out some of the videos I posted on YouTube from my performances!
I they're right below, with a short explanation to each.
This is also a good way to see my work, if you're considering having me at your event!
And OH; if you want to see more from me regularly, click the button below:
I'm seriously proud of this one; first stage show with Russian Gypsy dance!
Just a short improvisation after training, but I found it to be quite good and useful!
Also improvised, last minute show in India when my friend (the singer) wrote "Are you free tonight? We need a bellydancer!"
So I came!
Contortion/dance choreography performed at Copenhagen Tantra Festival (this was actually more than a year ago, but I didn't get the video until spring, haha).
First good-ish video of me doing rope-dart!
This summer I taught workshops and performed for the 4th time at Forest Star festival in Sweden, this time with Vibrasphere playing their set in the background....
It was absolutley beautiful, late at night, and so incredibly cold.
Hope you've enjoyed my work!
Love and dance
.... and, you know,
all the other things that would interest you if you're a fan, if you like my writing, or if you are a pontential employer/client for whom it is important to know if I am a republican or if I eat bacon every day.Fortunately for you, I am/do neither. Bacon is not healthy.