What happens after the curtain falls?

6/15/2017

The big stage, the whole hall, empty....

Hemsöborna is over.
You’re on vacation! HURRAY!
Well, not exactly. Not for me at least.
The actors I’ve worked with the past months at city theatre in Stockholm (Kulturhuset Stadsteatern) are employed full-time, so they get vacation pay all through summer. But I sort-of have vacation too, partly, while I’ll be travelling, but I will also be performing and working on projects and other stuff whenever time is right.
Either way, a few words of goodbye to my fellow co-workers from this theatre play… it has been absolutely beautiful!

I am so honored to have worked with these professional actors, make up artists, technicians, costume people, sound, light, and others who all are not just incredible at what they do, but also great people.

I personally have not worked very well in group. Ever. Or even with one or two people in a group. I am the only child, the solo, the one in charge and not wanting to share. As a child I did hammer throwing, judo, dance (mostly solos), 400m track, even in handball I was a goalie!
But this has opened me up to so much more! I have worked tremendleously well with these people, they really care about one another, joke around, sing… theatre people are a completely different breed; one just feels truly accepted and can let go amongst them! And I feel like I was able to do that.

So play is now over… it feels quite empty. I feel the need to go back, to do more, like I could have done EVEN more!
Being on that stage, though it wasn’t many tasks or a big role, has been amazing. Somehow I felt completely calm, but excited and a feeling of home, when entering the stage for the 12th or 37th time and doing the same thing, over and over. It was soothing. In the second act, there’s a point where we all sit at a table, and the light shines so bright on the white tablecloth I cannot see beyond it… I just see black, only imagining that there actually is 300-700 people sitting there.
Not only that - I was in a classical play, "big theatre", which I really love!

But, as one of the actresses said – now there’s panic! Every time she finished a play she was afraid she would never be on stage again - but here she was, working on the big stage, and with two more plays to come!
So of course I will be on stage again. I'm just not used to saying goodbye to people I've worked so well with, for such a long time....

Working at Stadsteatern has been a blast, I am so grateful! And I truly hope I get to work with you again, or that this leads to more awesome jobs like this one, where I can continue doing what I love, and feeling at home with the ones I work with!

I’m gonna miss every single one of you.
THANK YOU SO MUCH!!